||[Dec. 15th, 2009|02:49 pm]
Sent at 2:03 PM on Tuesday
me: oh hai
I just texted you.
Matt: I saw
thank you for eating food and having beers and weed with me
me: it was great
thanks for getting me dinner and beers and high times.
Sent at 2:05 PM on Tuesday
me: I just hope....
Sent at 2:11 PM on Tuesday
me: sigh I just hope that you didn't take advantage of my rather vulnerable state right now. Because that would be...
Matt: that was not my intention.
I was kinda buzzed and feeling sentimental. I wasn't trying to lead you on or take advantage.
Matt: I feel ok about it but I guess it was a little weird. I wasn't planning on that happening.
me: it's strange how something can be simultaneously normal and weird.
wasn't planning on it either - not sorry though.
I guess I'm pretty lonely and I'm sure you are too. I felt like cuddling would be nice. I wanted to massage your back and make you feel good.
Then we both got horny, I think.
me: that sounds accurate
Matt: Don't think it doesn't mean anything...
me: i don't
Matt: Sorry I took awhile...drunkenness and all.
me: it's fine
don't worry about that
Matt: It was definitely good though
me: i forgot what a good kisser you are
should i not say stuff like that?
Matt: it's ok
me: it definitely didn't help me stop missing you
kind of made it worse actually
Sent at 2:19 PM on Tuesday
Matt: we will hang out again sometime soon.
Matt: And it will probably be pretty normal and not weird.
me: it ended up being pretty normal
Matt: yeah, I guess we did the typical thing.
me: but without me freaking out
which was atypical
Matt: I'm glad about that.
me: me too!
Matt: I wouldn't have even thought about trying anything if I didn't think you could handle it ok.
me: I can handle it.
Matt: you seem much better
me: I love not being so anxious all the time.
but then of course I hate not being with you.
now I'm being too open and honest
Sent at 2:24 PM on Tuesday
Matt: it's ok
I hate to suddenly change the subject...
Matt: but I was wondering if I could get money for the internet bill
me: oh shit
I forgot last night
Matt: I'm going to be broke soon
me: I'm sorry
Matt: I paid the whole past due
me: do you work tonight?
me: It's $160?
Matt: could you go to the bank today and get cash?
Matt: It was $100 a piece.
Matt: We do owe $160 more though
I think they might have turned the cable back on. I haven't checked yet.
me: they did
Well we should pay the remainder soon.
I'll go to an ATM after work
give me a call when you're free
and I'll give you the money
Matt: Might have to wait until monday to pay more though
What time do you get off?
after Amy leaves
Matt: ok, well I have work at 5. I'll probably be busy after.
me: well, I can leave the money at home.
so you can pick it up whenever
Matt: If you can't get it today I could get it tomorrow.
me: does that work?
I'm going to pay the gas bill soon, but I will have to pay the remainder of the internet bill and the electric bill on Monday.
Matt: I get two paychecks that day and electric still won't be overdue.
I will be back in a few minutes, going to have a cigarette.
me: me 2
Sent at 2:32 PM on Tuesday
me: Amy is back
I should go.
I'll talk to you later, hopefully.
Matt: ok, I need to do some things, I have to go too.
Matt: talk to you later